This is a title to a song by Demon Hunter that I absolutely love! To me, it reminds me that I need to draw myself away from sin by running away from it. I’m really good at running, especially from problems, which I don’t think the song is advocating! I know a number of survivorsContinue reading “Turn Your Back and Run”
Author Archives: Harry Estes
Anniversary Syndrome
It’s been 39 years since I was molested by my perpetrator, and I will always remember the date, Saturday, August 31, 1985. Although the event has been cemented into my memory, the trauma of the time doesn’t affect me nearly as badly as it did years ago. I believe a big part of it wasContinue reading “Anniversary Syndrome”
Walls
I think most survivors of sexual abuse would agree that we have built up emotional walls our entire life. For me, I’ve built up these walls because I need to protect myself from others who potentially might harm me, and the reason that I have done this is because I didn’t have healthy boundaries inContinue reading “Walls”
Anger
Needless to say, I don’t deal with anger very well at all. I remember my mother getting angry when a was younger, which I don’t think she dealt with it very well either. She would hold her emotions inside of her until she could no longer suppress it, and the anger would come out explosively.Continue reading “Anger”
Dealing with Change
This fall, I will begin my 30th year teaching! So much has changed since I first started, which I’m sure is what happens with any job. But even from year to year, I have to adjust to changes in my routine. And if you know me, I value my routines highly! I’ve enjoyed a fewContinue reading “Dealing with Change”
Bad Days
Yesterday was not a good day for me emotionally. I didn’t get great sleep the night before, which I’m sure had a significant impact on my feelings. On my drive to work, my mind spiraled with negative thoughts about my performance at work, my significance to others regarding friendships and relationships, my workout life, andContinue reading “Bad Days”
Taking Things Personal
I know that everyone takes things too personal sometimes, but I feel like I have mastered the art. From a text that might go unanswered for a few hours to a cryptic interaction with a new person, I can make almost anything revolve around something I did poorly! I understand that many people have thisContinue reading “Taking Things Personal”
Fatherly Approval
I ran across a post recently that talked exactly how my father parented me. He would have been considered part of The Greatest Generation, being born in 1911. He was considerably older than my mom and was 60 years old when I was born. Typical of many men at that time, he considered his greatestContinue reading “Fatherly Approval”
It’s Been A While…
It’s been well over a year since I’ve last posted anything. Many things have changed in my work life and the groups that I have been a part of, especially in the last few months. It has given me some time to reflect on my healing and my journey in recovering from my past sexualContinue reading “It’s Been A While…”
Holiday Check-ins
As the holiday season approaches, I want to encourage you all to check in on your friends and family who you know are survivors. Although we may appear to be alright, the holidays can be a very traumatic and triggering time. From my experience, sexual abuse occurs far more by family members than it occursContinue reading “Holiday Check-ins”
Harry L. Estes 