Author Archives: Harry Estes

One of the things that I found during this pandemic is that people cannot stand to be isolated very long. As humans, we seek the company of others. Even in our isolation, most of us drew together as families even closer than we had before. I found that with my family and it has beenContinue reading “No Need to Live in Isolation”

A couple of weeks ago, I wrote about some of the sexual intimacy issues that occur for male survivors. I began discussing the issues that occur with young children who have been sexually abused, but I did not go into the intimacy issues that occur when the abuse occurs later in a young man’s life.Continue reading “Sexual Intimacy Issues Part 2”

Sexual intimacy is a beautiful, complex set of emotional behaviors and physical acts that, at times, can difficult for healthy functioning adults to navigate. When sexual abuse becomes a part of the scenario, intimacy can be difficult and devastating. Children were never meant to have sexual relationships. The capacity in their brains to understand andContinue reading “Sexual Intimacy Issues”

I’m part of an adult male sexual survivors group that frequently shares the stories of their childhood sexual abuse, the hurts that the abuse has caused, and the general day-to-day life of being a survivor. It hurts every time I hear the stories of our abuse! No matter how many times I’ve heard the survivor’sContinue reading “There Are No Dueling Traumas!”

I have battled with negativity and negative thoughts about myself for as long as I can remember. Once I had been sexually abused, for a long time, the negative voices were all I would listen to. It was difficult to hear any kind of complement without shooting it down with something negative or dismissing itContinue reading “Negative Voices”

I talked with my therapist today about wanting to feel things. Specifically, I want to feel like my parents did their best with what they were given when they raised me. I can say that in my head, but I don’t think I feel it in my heart. Unfortunately, as a result of my sexualContinue reading “Emotions”

I wouldn’t necessarily consider myself an anxious person. When I think of those who are anxious, I think of people who are jittery, nervous, and jumpy most of the time. However, when it comes to changes in my life, then all of a sudden, I do become quite anxious. I think and plan about changesContinue reading “Anxiety”

I injured my calf this week running on the treadmill at my gym. I tried really hard to work through it, pausing to walk it off, stretching it for a minute or two, walking again, and then up to slowly running on it. Once I felt a pop in the middle of my calf, IContinue reading “Injury”

I did a podcast this week with childhood sexual abuse as the topic and highlighting my books. It was a strange experience to talk so openly about my past and about how others can help understand survivors of sexual abuse. I realized how difficult it is for survivors of sexual abuse to explain and helpContinue reading “Perspectives”

I know I’m stating the obvious, but being sexually abused really messes up your sense of self. Women who have been molested tend to become highly sexualized at a young age. They abuse their own bodies through cutting, eating disorders, or substances. Men aren’t really that different, either. I think the way that we chooseContinue reading “Self”