One of the most difficult and most powerful aspects of our lives is our spirituality. I believe that our spirituality also can heal us tremendously. Unfortunately, many people have used spirituality and the Church to abuse us and take advantage of us sexually. My hope is that all survivors will be able to look past the people in the Church to focus on the hope that is in Jesus.
For a long time in my life, I tried desperately to rely on others to help me figure out life. I was greatly disappointed because people could just not fulfill the needs I had to understand my very complicated emotional state. I then turned to myself, and I was hopelessly lost at figuring out my own life. It was only when I developed a faith in God that I was able to begin to understand how complex the various facets of my life were. I don’t always get the answers that I’m seeking. At times, I can be frustrated that my life and growth don’t appear to move at the pace I desire. Also, I battle between my needs and my wants in prayer. However, if nothing else, I have experienced a peace in my life that I can’t explain through ordinary means. As I’ve grown, I’ve come to understand that peace is more valuable than any other thing I can attain.
I understand that not everyone is at a place where they can reconcile themselves with their own faith. I hope that you understand that I get that. I’m very willing to have a conversation with you about it.
Harry L. Estes 