One of the best things I ever did for my own healing was to enter into therapy and take medication. Once I was honest with a therapist and discussed my sexual abuse, I truly felt healing taking place. However, healing is not an overnight solution. Just like a journey it takes time and hard work. Being truthful to yourself is sometimes the hardest thing you will ever do.
I’ve had a number of psychologists over the past 30 years since I’ve started therapy. Each has helped in improve my life, albeit in a different way. In the beginning, therapy was all about coming to terms with my abuse, giving me the realization that it wasn’t my fault. As therapy progressed, I worked on how my abuse has affected my relationships. Therapy has also been critical in the development of my identity and to interact with others in a healthy way. If you are struggling with issues related to childhood sexual abuse, I strongly encourage you to find a therapist who will work with you with an issue you feel the need to resolve.
I have been on antidepressants since my early 20s. At first, I was skeptical about their effectiveness to treat my symptoms and cautious about their side effects. Furthermore, I was frightened by the stigma of what being on medication meant. My starter pack of Prozac was what broke my serotonin uptake virginity! I noticed that it was like an extra shot of coffee until I found the correct dose that kept my emotions at an even keel. Not everyone needs medication, but I would discuss the possibilities with your therapist. The antidepressants gave me the energy that I needed to focus on my healing, rather than leaving me in a pit of despair that I couldn’t escape. As many of you know, it requires a great deal of energy to combat the unhealthy habits I had acquired.
Harry L. Estes 