I hope that those of you who read this blog don’t tire of my posts regarding holidays, but these are some difficult times for survivors of sexual abuse. Most survivors I know where abused by a family member, not a stranger. Those family members were usually present at some or all of the holidays, whichContinue reading “Holiday Difficulties”
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The Pitfalls of Writing
My current writing project is a historical fiction novel set in my hometown at the beginning of the 20th century. Now, it would seem since I love history and I’ve already written a few books that this would be an easy endeavor for me. But I have really struggled with being as prolific with thisContinue reading “The Pitfalls of Writing”
Finding Equilibrium
Many of you may not know that I have a bachelor’s degree in biochemistry. All throughout high school, my career goal was to become a research scientist with a focus in studying immunology. Early on in my life, I was fascinated by how the immune system worked and filled with compassion for those who hadContinue reading “Finding Equilibrium”
What Makes Men Masculine?
I’ve discussed masculinity periodically in several posts. It’s something for me that I have a difficult time coming to terms with as a survivor. As I’ve said before, it’s really hard for me to see myself as masculine. I have a very narrow sense of what makes a man, well a man. However, the dichotomyContinue reading “What Makes Men Masculine?”
A Time for Reflection
I’ve just finished my 30th year of teaching. The end of the school year always gives me a time to reflect on the progress, or sometimes the lack of progress, I have made. Overall, I feel that I’m in a good place, but I recognize that there are still areas where I need to improve.Continue reading “A Time for Reflection”
Predators
A friend of mine who I hadn’t seen in about four years visited southern California this weekend. We talked a great deal about many things, but since he knows that I’m a survivor, our conversation did talk about childhood sexual abuse. He was uncertain if he had been molested by his priest as a childContinue reading “Predators”
Enjoying Recognition
On Saturday, May 3, I will be a part of the Local Author’s Festival selling and signing some of my novels. I’ve told my friends and co-workers about the event, and everyone has wished me well. But I’m a little anxious about the signing because I feel as if I don’t really belong there. I’veContinue reading “Enjoying Recognition”
Writing Your Story
If you’ve read some of my posts or even looked at my other pages on this site, you’ll know that I’ve written four novels centering on the topic of childhood sexual abuse. The first book is still fiction, but it most closely resembles my own story of molestation. The other books are a compilation ofContinue reading “Writing Your Story”
Feeling Some Raw Emotion
I’ve recently had a few weeks where every morning, I have cried. I have felt sad, lonely, and depressed. And really cried about it, too! Not just a sob or a few tears running down my face but weeping uncontrollably. I haven’t cried like that, or even shed a tear, in years. I attribute theContinue reading “Feeling Some Raw Emotion”
Suicidal Ideation
Many people, and most survivors, have thought about ending their lives at various times. I would imagine that most everyone has thought about what life would be like if they weren’t around any longer. Life can certainly bring us to such low points that this type of thinking becomes a reality for many people. I’veContinue reading “Suicidal Ideation”
Harry L. Estes 