It’s been well over a year since I’ve last posted anything. Many things have changed in my work life and the groups that I have been a part of, especially in the last few months. It has given me some time to reflect on my healing and my journey in recovering from my past sexual abuse. Overall, it has been a difficult but positive experience.
I’ve certainly learned this year that growing as a person and becoming more of the man who I want to be comes with struggle and difficulties. In January, I completely went off antidepressants. Although I had taken a year to ween myself off of the medication, I struggled a great deal with ups and downs of my emotions. I started to actually feel things in my life, and I’m still learning how to manage and understand those feelings. I’ve had to learn how to say no and realize the importance of boundaries in my personal and work life. Additionally, I’ve come to some realizations that my expectations of friendships and relationships have to change and that altering what I believe is no reflection on me as a person.
I feel as if I’m in a healthier place than I was a year ago. I feel like I’ve learned a great deal, thanks to God, my family, and my therapist. But I still have a long way to go! I’m hoping to share some of those experiences here, and also I hope that you will gain some insight and some understanding through these posts.
Finally, I’ve been working on a mystery novel and a fantasy novel over the past year. I’m in the process of editing and deciding if it is something I want to publish later. I will keep you posted on that process.
Harry L. Estes 